Tainted Memories.

I Couldn't help it.
I was looking through my history on my accounts and I found several conversations between my ex and I. I can't stop thinking about him. It doesn't usually take this long to forget surely?
I decide I'm a 'nun' and I'm not going to like anyone or fall again and just when I start to change my mind I end up getting hurt again.

I mean someone tells you they like you, slowly bring your heart out of it's protective case by the little things he does and then.. Nothing. He starts talking about other girls and flirting with them instead. I just... Don't understand.

I'm so out of my mind. I am clearly still in love with my ex. That much is blatantly obvious at times like this. However, why am I feeling ... something towards this other person. A person who I can not have, either. Why am I torturing myself so?

Whatever happens I believe I will always remember that cold, lonely waiting room in which my ex held my hand and stayed with me. He made me laugh, however inappropriate it was to do so. Even though, all I wanted to do was cry.

I wont forget the walk for hours and the feast upon the grass - in fields hidden far from any place unkind.

Then I don't think it would be right to forget this new guy. I was out, wondering round in the darkness. He didn't like the idea of me being so vulnerable and so he met me, and he stayed with me, until the early hours of the morning. We talked and laughed and sat together on the grassy patch in the middle of a crossing all through the night and not a soul interrupted us.

Times like these. Memories made from things we dream about. These are the recollections that stay with me and remind me that there is a chance that true love is real. It reminds me that sometimes, I should fall, because someone may just be there to catch me.
                                                           Why shouldn't fairy tales come true?
Over and Out. Ta-Rah!
Love CBC ^^ <3 xx