I really, really am unable to control myself.
We went to the cinema, I couldn't not hug him through the sad parts... and even through some of the normal parts. I couldn't stop myself. It's like.. finally being allowed something you've wanted for a long time...
I can't describe it because it all seems so.. dreamlike... And I hate being Cliche or Cheesy. But this is the guy who I liked enough to split my first real boyfriend and myself up. The guy that the thought of gave me hours of hopeful dreams. The guy I never thought I could have.
We went wandering yesterday and... It was perfect. Like one of those dreams I'd hoped for for years..
We went to the sea and walked along it, laughing, joking... Pretending to push each other in the water. Accidental brushes of our hands. Then when it began to 'pitter patter' with rain we sat on the steps that lead to the water; knee-to-knee, arm-to-arm. We sat there for a while my head resting on his arm, his head resting on mine, and it was perfect. But, it's complicated... I gave in. I gave in to him when really, I should have consulted my best friend first... This way I might have just ruined everything.. We'll just have to wait and see...
Ta-rah..
Love CBC ... Forever hopeful of redemption <3 xxx
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