To Fly Over The Rainbow xXx

There is a part of my soul that wants to fly free. Now, I don't know how much of it is due to my current circumstances but what I do know, is that it has always been present in my thoughts.

I always knew I was born to fly away. I've always felt like the Teddy left on the shelf; left wanting to explore. Feeling like the child's poem of the Dickie Birds; Pete and Paul, that only got to fly away because they were told to. However, this want has grown, slowly but surely into a flowering need to blossom and climb towards the sun.
A need of adventure.
A need to be lost.
A need for a different life.

I think this is common; at least it's common in films and books when the narrative always shows a female's angst and loss of faith in the world. This is not to say that I have lost faith in the world, more that I've never had a faith or belief and have grown accustomed to clinging to any hope that I may find. That would be something that I think has to change.

Poem

The Leaves Fall With Grace And Charm
Carving A Pattern Of Pain.
Not Looking At What's Left Behind
Yet Always Hoping To Be Reclaimed.

A Sonnet Spoken Softly,
Hiding The Truth In Your Words.
A Lover That Was Left On The Sidelines
Who Never Even Heard.

The Resounding Drop
When A Flower Descends.
With A Lifetime Of Memories
It's Just A Quick Move To The End.

The Death Of Love, Seen Too Soon,
While The Cowboy Sits In The Last Chance Saloon.
Original Poem By CBC ^.^ - (TM)


Anyway, That is all.
Ta-rah! Love always, CBC ^-^ xxx

If You Just Smile...

It is the strangest sensation to enter the world from someone elses eyes. However, to read the map of your life told from within the binds of a novel or in the sad lines of a song, is a mystical anomaly which happens frequently.

This is my life right now; the book  that I happen to be reading reflects perfectly the ridges and bends in my own tale. In my own life.

My perfectly happy state of love in my relationship has been crumbling for a long time now, and I seem unable to unfasten the straps that keep me bound here, but also unable to recapture or rekindle our feelings.

I am in limbo.
WE are in limbo.

What is worse, is the fact that I can tell no-one. Some of my friends have been lost due to this relationship and others are telling the world they'd do anything for him... Which stands to reason that if this all blew up, I'd have lost everyone. All that mattered.

 Deep down, however, I know nothing is an end. It is all just a new beginning and this could quite easily be the opening of something spectacular in my life. I will never be afraid of what is to be because, there is always a move to play. Our game never ends until you admit defeat, or death enslaves you. I am at neither of those options in my life and so I shall continue to smile and strive for my own Happily-Ever-After.

Ta-rah! Love CBC ^^ xXx